so no one told u life was gonna be this way........

i dont watch the new not only because its boring and depressing, its repetitive. who wants to hear about octomom for the millionth time? im also really sick of hearing another bank spending OUR tax dollars to give bonuses and vacations to the people who fucked up. im also really sick of hearing the economy is in crisis. no shit sherlock. its been in crisis for the past three to four years you didnt report about it then did u? most of all im really sick of hearing that obama will save us. as ive said before realistically, it will take a decade if that, to get us all out of the shit hole bush dug us in. its almost like no one even cares for the hard working people like my dad, and noodle's dad. they care about heidi and spencer though. those asshats dont deserve a bit of my attention. i dont even watch that show, yeah thats what little girls ahould look up to, those uneducated blonde/brunette bimbos that think the only problems in the world revolve around what they have is with their boyfriend/ex boyfriend or the girl who used to date her boyfriend or the girl who used to be her friend and girl who supposedly spread rumors about you. im sorry you could go to any high school in america and find the same drama. it also pisses me off for people to say that those girls are so beautiful, when theyre so ugly on the inside.

speaking about beauty, what the hell is beautiful? real women inside and out are beautiful anymore? having natural curves isnt beautiful anymore? having a natural face isnt beautiful anymore? being thin naturally isnt beautiful anymore? ugh it just bothers me to see that men have such high expectations for women, cuz when they see the women in the sports illustrated swimsuit edition cover, they think oh ow thats a beautiful woman, when you look closer at the picture you can see that the girl's arm is the same size as her legs. and they pose in such ways so you dont see their bones that are popping out of their body. ugh disgusting if u ask me. and hollywood is so thin that i saw on E! news (yes one of the few times i watch) this person who wrote this book, called the "other side of hollywood" or something like that, said that celebs often lie when tell how they get thin. which dooesnt surprise me one bit. they go to extremes even getting prescriptions that are supposedly for ADD but they're for dieting. hey i know one thing that can help you to lose weight, eat healthy and excercise. well im one to talk since i ate taco bell and a bunch of other stuff today. (what? my mom was supposed to be back two hours ago)

anyways enough of me ranting.......i have enough to worry about. so i'll post another blog about some thing soon till then.....

i told u i'd be doing this more often.

so i know my last post was a little spur of the moment, but i couldnt help it. that was one disturbing picture, if chris really did do that to rihanna (which it looks like he did) next time i see him he'll be getting a taste of his own medicine. that shit is horrible. anyways enough about that. i constantly find myself listening to songs from two or three years ago, the new songs i did listen to are from duffy, who is awesome, and from shinedown (thanks noodles), no new hindi songs, except from dostana, which i really like. even though i still find "desi girl" really annoying. but its the same with any britney song, its so annoying that you somehow find yourself singing it a week later. listening to all my LP and M5 songs i came to realization that no band since these two has had as much success (jonas brothers doesnt count) or has made as good music. im so disappointed with todays music, with a only a couple of exceptional bands like paramore and 3 days grace. i only like indie stuff now like The Like, and Rock Kills Kid. i REALLY liked sara bareilles, before she went mainstream. she used to be a you oughta know artist on VH1 before she was big and i saw her open for M5 at AllState back in'07. i thought she was amazing, she had a lot of soul in what she did. now it seems like shes part of the whole mainstream act. people think that LP did the same thing, they were underground before they hit it big with "in the end" but i think they're success kinda speaks itself doesnt it? and no they're not sell outs, selling out is losing who are as a band and making music that people you think want and from the interviews and chats ive read they're happy with MTM. and they wanted to make something different too, who wants to hear another meteora or hybrid theory? i do too, but they wanted to prove something and if you cant respect that then maybe you shouldnt be a fan.
so M5 is also in the studio too, did i ever tell you how close LP and M5 follow each other? i swear they practically have the same gigs within days of each other. they even recorded with the same producer on their last albums. in the same place! weird if i ask me. so anyways on M5's homepage it says their in the studio, so LP and M5 are in the studio at the same time AGAIN! but M5 hasnt said anything about studio time or rehearsals or about possible songs. unlike LP where mike let us know about the music he's been making. cant wait for both albums. and i cant wait for chesters solo project, from what ive read and seen, its going to be all rock.

enough about music im wanna talk about a radio me and my brother listen to, his name is christoher reburn, and he talks about a lot of spiritual stuff, if your into that type of thing u can go to blogtalkradio.com and type in reburn in the search box, and just click on christopher reburn. im a very spiritual person, religion has been as JT says"dead and gone" for so many years to me. my mom hates that i wont pray with her or do anything religious with her anymore. and we get into fights because of it. come to think about it, we fight over everything.

as far as school goes i got done with my poem for poetry class, its really good i'll post it when i can. i also got done with my business exam, it went really well. so thats it for now till then......

rihanna and chris brown update.

as i previously expressed in my blogs, i dont care too much about these two but when you come across a picture like the one below, you cant ignore it. hey chris i got a message for you: you messed with the wrong girl. you do realize she's part of jay-z's crew? do u know what happened to the last guy who messed with his crew? yeah im talking about ja rule. he doesnt have much of a career now does he? now i dont like TMZ, i personally think that they're jobless idiots, but i heard that they're pretty reliable when it comes to documents and pictures. and another thing chris: you just lost of my respect, and a lot of your fans too. good luck trying to redeem your career now u piece of shit.

everything is bullshit.

yup thats right i said it, everything and everybody is bullshit. i feel that everyone is ganging up on me for no reason. i was just playing halo 3 with my brothers friend and my cousin and my brother, we were all on teams, and i was teamed up with my brother's friend. well my brother and my cousin thought it would be funny to team up and kill me all the time because it would be easier. once i knew what theyre little game was i got pissed, then i walked off. i cant take this kind of bullshit anymore. I CANT! im so mad at them right now. for once i would like to be good at one thing, and i cant. i just cant. i try to get better and its hard because they get better too. i want to just quit everything while im at it. now i know how noodles feels when she wanted to kill herself. cause i feel my life is worthless at times. i cant play anything, i cant do anything. i fail anything i try. and now im a failure. have been and always will be, i will never be anything good even if i tried. i dont have any goals, i feel that im not gonna be good in business, cause i suck at that. i suck at math, and science. i suck at EVERYTHING. sometimes i wonder where that little girl who used to be so ambitious and who wanted to try new things went. i used to have so many dreams when i was a kid and now i know that i cant do anything. im gonna die alone, not be anything , collecting tax payers money as i live off of welfare. im gonna be no one, nothing good. i suddenly feel sorry for the woman with the octuplets, cause she had no one motivating her as a child. as im writing this with tears rolling down my face, i cant help but wonder if i die now will anyone remember me?

ahh doing a post at school

so its been awhile since my last post. im gonna try and post more often. so i just finished my first psych exam, a little harder than i expected but it was okay. did any of u see the grammys? i did. well some of it at least, i skipped all the parts with miley, the jo blows, and taylor swift. so M5 got robbed this year, so did Jason Mraz i mean seriously, John Mayer has enough grammys. But im glad Duffy and Adele got grammys cause they deserved it.
sooo in other news, LP is working on their new album i cant wait to hear that, Mike says its gonna be a mix of the old and new stuff. and can you believe what chris brown did to rihanna? normally i wouldnt talk about these two, cause i could care less about them but what ive heard is that chris brown beat rihanna up! (about time someone did too), now let me just say that i hate domestic violence and that chris brown aint a man for hitting a girl. but chris you hit the wrong girl! you shouldve hit miley! lol. yeah his career is OVER. i used to think he was a nice guy but damn just when you had everything figured out.....BAM! shit like this comes at you. and i HATE rihanna but i feel bad for her, poor thing, i really hope she gets out of that thing called a "relationship"
did u see how much the lady with the octupulets looks like a cracked out fatter version of angelina jolie? and her babies??? my god they look like they're about to die any second! that woman is more delusional than courtney love. and courtney love has a serious case of personality delusional cracked out disorder.

im so sore from working out, ive also helped my dad move into his new apartment in oak lawn,IL. since he works there and all, and my mom is helping him settle in this week. yeah and my bro and i got the house to ourselves till friday. so thats it for now, im gonna post more pics up when i can (or when i feel like it) so buh bye.

i know im lazy

so whats been up? my classes are going well so far, the quizzes ive had are not hard at all. worst case scenario: C- final grade. what else is going on, well noodles was feeling very isolated and vulnerable, so she didnt talk to me for a week. it wasnt me it was just a mix of her therapy and stuff. if u wanna know more then read her blog. i havent been taking any pictures lately cause i havent felt inspired. i cant pursue being a real photographer, cause 1. im an amateur and 2. i dont think im THAT good. sure the marker picture was good, (or the "flowers of markers" as my godmom calls it) but i cant come up with those every time. i would love to print some of my pics and put them on my walls, replacing my old posters. speaking of posters i need to find and LP poster.

on to my next topic: things that irk me.
my brother mentioned this on his blog; about people coming into this country, and just completely dissing it. ive seen this not too long ago, people coming from afar because they cannot get opportunities like we have her in the US , in their country. yet they go on dissing it saying "why should we learn about your history? , its so unfair!" ummm because you're LIVING IN IT DUMBASS. have some respect for the people that are actual citizens of this country, we may not be as smart, as healthy, a a greater economy (yes i do realize its the whole global economy thats in a meltdown) as you do. but when you come into our country and say those things, be careful who you say them too.
and my god do i HATE people especially, conservative christians, and just religious fanatics in general. just because you're book says that gays shouldnt be together, doesnt mean they wont. im in a generation where gays come out when they're in high school, maybe even younger than that. i knew a lot of gays, and even found out that a childhood friend of mine was gay a while back. i was even in a play with a gay guy. gays are no different than us, they are human beings. they do not like it when they're being discriminated against, yes im talking about gay marriage. it IS discriminatory if your not letting people do a thing, or an action (such as marriage) because of their race, gender and/or sexual orientation. that is my own definition, so dont go looking it up and say "thats not what it says". after being around bisexuals and gays, i know this: you cant choose who you love, its just a feeling you cant control. and no im not gay, im as straight as a boat.
adrianne curry decided to start her own religion "the church of aslan" go to her myspace blog or look it up. and while your at it look up "the church of the flying spaghetti monster". these are satiric views on religion. i didnt join these churches simply because i have my own belief system. im not a non believer, but im not a book reader either (book meaning holy book). i just consider myself a very spiritual person. i do like the churches though (the church of aslan, and flying spaghetti monster). but i do believe in a god. just not the god written in the holy books. and those who believe in that, good for you but please dont impose your views on me or i'll feed you to adrianne.
well thats all for now till next time.........