i havent written in awhile

there is so much going on in my life right now that i feel like im going to explode at times. i wont reveal too much but some of it has to do with my family but most of it has to do with me. i fear a lot. i fear i will die alone, i fear that i will never reach my career goals, i fear that i will be stuck at home for the rest of my life. my parents dont really understand what i go through, what i deal with everyday nor do they make an effort to. i think that was what sent me over the edge. i constantly feel under appreciated for everything i do for them and i feel like i have to force a thank you out of them every time. but in the end all i really needed was just a couple of days to myself which i did and i feel a lot better.

moving on.....im just relieved that new moon is nearing its release date so i wont have to see all of those ads for it on tv or the cast coming on my shows i watch and promoting it like their life depends on it. and im very tired of hearing the stupid rob and kristin rumors. its very clear from the body language i saw on the today show, (hey i was bored and i didnt feel like changing the channel) that they were in fact hiding that they are dating. my bro even noticed the little freudian slips kristin gave on the today show. i just wish those two would just say yes we are dating and move on so they dont take up anymore of my show's time. i never even read the books or seen the movie and i know what the hell is going on which is even sadder.

i have also recently have seen that chick carrie prejean on cnn, promoting her book and how she's a victim and crap. it wasnt even her stand on gay marriage that got me mad (frankly, i thought it was she was entitled to her opinion, if she were to say that to me i wouldve told her "to rewrite the constitution so you cant vote ,go to war, not marry) i lost all respect for that chick when she played the victim card when this supposed "christian" has a sex tape. unbelievable. she justifies her claims by putting blame on the liberals whenever they attack conservatives. again unbelievable. you know you cant take this chick seriously especially when she calls sarah palin her hero. and that wasnt even the hilarious part, it was the fact that she calls herself accomplished that was so funny. im sorry but what did she accomplish exactly other than being hated by most of nation?

thats it for now...i'll write more soon

new show review

the following is another review, if you don't want to read it then leave now or bite me.

there isn't a lot of new shows out there (or any good ones to say the least), but there was one that surprised me. it's the new show on usa called white collar. its about neal caffery, a con man, escapes from prison with just three months left on his three year sentence using the fraud like techniques showed in movies like "catch me if you can" and "ocean's eleven". he stops at an empty apartment with an empty wine bottle where the cops and peter burke, the man who's been trailing him for years, catch him. back in prison, neal ends up making a deal with peter, he could help catch other thieves just like him, if he gets released under peter's watch.

as the pilot develops you discover that peter is married to a wife who keeps him grounded, and neal is just a hopeless romantic. you end up rooting for both of them by the end of the episode.


i honestly wasn't expecting to love it, but i did. this is the first time in a very long time im excited for friday to come so i can see another episode.