i guess it's time for a movie review

its that time of year again, all the scary movies coming out right before halloween (or the movie Saw, that comes out every halloween). i saw a movie that made me lose sleep two nights in a row, paranormal activity. The movie takes place in san diego, california where a young couple easily in their twenties, recently started noticing strange things happening in their home. to be sure that it was paranormal they rented a camera to catch these strange things. what they found was something beyond freaky.

paranormal activity is not your everyday scary story. it's taken from the angle of the rented camera, so it looks like a "mockumentary" ala blair witch project. the story starts off slow only to build up to an amazing scary ending. there are not a lot of characters that have a lot of lines but the couple they show us and the visual effects (if used at all) were not obvious. to be honest, the raw and realness of the video made me think this was actual footage of someone's house.

because of the direction, storyline, acting, the the incredible amount of fear i got from it, i give this movie an A.


my advice for those who want to see it:
1. please go into the movie with ZERO expectations, if you listened to the hype just wait for the DVD.
2. i strongly advise not to see this movie alone, this is actually a very good date movie, i saw a lot of girls holding on to their significant others throughout the movie.
3. whatever you do NOT see this movie at night, i know a lot of people who did this and they stayed awake the entire night.
4. the movie is rated R for a reason, it is SCARY, so please use your common sense and don't bring children under 17 to it.

well thats it.

i'll probably write my review for law abiding citizen later

writing with a killer headache

so my mom came from chicago and is staying at the house for a couple weeks. last year, my mom was used to seeing my bro and i every day, this year is different especially since june. having her here is nice, but at the same time it's a little drag because my bro and i have to take care of her. it's not that she's immobile or anything, she just needs more attention. sometimes its too much for me. i was thinking about getting a job, but now it seems like madness. with the stress level already high for me right now, i dont know if i could take a job plus the recession took a big toll on where i live. sometimes i feel just as stressed as the people in my night class, and they have full time jobs, have kids and are married (well most of them are). i am 20 years old and i should be living it up instead im stuck at home most of the time. i chose career instead of partying it up in college. i chose to go home after work instead of spending the whole night riding rides or searching for flags. i chose not to go after the one i like instead of having a boyfriend. those were my decisions and which lead me to where? having no fun whatsoever. things always held me back, my parents for one, and fear for two. i bet you anything next year im going to be celebrating my 21st birthday with my family instead of my friends. i could put the blame on my parents for me not having any fun during my teens, but i wont. because i could've easily told them i was going to my best friend's house when i would really go to a party that was loaded with alcohol and who knows what else. i was invited to those back in high school, not directly, but i knew if i asked they wouldve said yes. a lot of shit happened to me in high school. my heart got broken (hey whose didn't?), i was pretty much an outcast mostly because i was friends with a girl who basically whored herself to every guy she saw. i wanted to help her but she talked some crap behind my best friend's back (she was friends with her too) and lets just say i lost touch with her. besides my best friend, i had no one. i mean i was cool with some people but i never hung out with them outside of school. i just felt so withdrawn during that time, i felt so out of place with everyone. the only time i didn't was when i was in drama club. there i felt like the girls who didn't talk to me did when i did my first play. my second play, no one did. i remember one time senior year, there was a girl who moved from texas, she was a beautiful blonde girl, i offered to show her around because i've been in her position before. she kinda snubbed me and said "well i know where everything is" it wasnt long before she found her new friends which was the popular crowd who showed her around. i looked at her facebook and found that she was popular at her old school too. i believe its the theory of natural stability, or something like that when a teenager is a certain way at one school he or she will most likely be the same way when they move. its 75% with popular kids i believe, i learned that in my developmental psych class last semester. i have also taken enough psych classes to know that i was depressed most of my times in high school more so the end of sophomore year till senior year. i knew i was depressed, but i didn't think anything of it. i didn't know how bad it was until the beginning of my sophomore year in college, when i was learning about depression and more so this year. i also gained a lot of weight during high school and i didn't do much about it. you see, people who have known me forever would know that i used to be a tiny girl, i used to be around 5'3-5'4 till i sprouted up to 5'9. i also used to be bone skinny, my bro was like this too. people thought that my parents never fed us. we had such insanely high metabolisms. but i gained weight when i was 14 (my mom couldnt be happier), and kept gaining till i was 15 because i never got used to my new metabolism. i started working out, and i got into shape last year. i wish i feel the same way about my mental health as i do with my physical health though.

its hard to love yourself when you find so many faults, you know? i look in the mirror and i see so many things wrong with my face. sometimes i have my fat days too. you know when one day you realize you look overweight, but when you work out you feel better. there are days where i feel like i will die alone because i dont go out with anyone. there are days where i feel like i will being living at home until i die. i have my days where i say this isn't going to happen, where i make positive goals for myself so i don't think like that. i do have my days where i just write poems. because poems are my drugs. then there are days where i feel like a free bird, i dance around and be a happy child of god.

i just hope there are more days like that for me.

im sick with nothing else to do

dont you love catching a cold?...it only happens to me once a year so i guess today had to be it. lets see topics...topics....what to talk about.
i guess i could talk about my weird dream last night. i dreamt i was in this theater and linkin park (it couldve been dead by sunrise but im not sure) was playing inside. i somehow got front row seats and my bro was in the back (dont ask me why) anyways chester bennington comes down from the stage and into our area and i started going nuts. when the song ended he was going back up to the stage and i said something along the lines of "your awesome! thanks for all the music you brought into my life and i love you!!" and he touched his sweaty hand with mine and said "no thank YOU" and he left. he was shirtless like he always was when it;s the middle of a set. and i remember saying to myself "did i just scream like a little fangirl when he touched my hand?"

i got up a thousand times last night because of my cold and i had three dreams but this is the one i remembered the most. my first one was playing halo 3. which made sense cause i was playing halo 3 before i went to sleep.

you know sitting here talking about my dream and looking out the window which is filled with gray clouds doesn't make me feel any better about my cold...im slightly better now that i took a hot shower and drank some warm water.

oh! i know who to talk about now!

listen to this









Amazing right????

his name is Nick Pitera, he's a college graduate and is working for Pixar. it looks like he wasnt pursuing singing full time before but i bet he is now.

that's it for now

ahhhh review!

someone said im copying my brother in post topics for those of you who don't know already my brother has a blog of his own which you can view here . this isn't true. not only was my last post a quick review of sicko. i also had an example and an opinion, which yes, is quite similar to my brother's but is different.

anyways im not writing to refute that comment, but im writing because i recently heard the new dead by sunrise album, out of ashes. its soo good. for those of you into that whole head banging rock my suffering, fire, and crawl back in is good. and for those of you into that sensitive rock, "into you", "give me your name" (i want that song to be my first dance at my wedding), "let down", and "too late" are awesome songs. and "walking in circles, "morning after"(although, i love the underworld soundtrack version) "in the darkness" ,"condemned" and "inside of me" are good fillers...i wouldnt say these are bad...but they are either overproduced, trying too hard, etc. "end of the world" is the chester version of "hands held high" on LP's Minutes to Midnight.

its quite obvious for anyone who is an LP fan and who has read interview with chester in it from the past couple years (it would also help to read any interview about out of ashes) which he said it's about his divorce, getting remarried, and sobriety. he also said that "give me your name" was originally recorded as the first dance song at his wedding.

don't you love seeing one of your favorite rock stars grow in front of your eyes? one moment he's yelling "im about to break!" at you all angry, looking like a devil worshiper, the next he singing about how you remind him of the ocean.

funny how times have changed.