jillian michaels: she's a fraud alright

dont get me wrong, i used to love this chick, along with the rest of america. but there is this guy, who is a highly qualified and certified trainer, named steve turano who completely shut this chick down. i respect this guy cause he makes a whole lot more sense than jillian ever did. he actually answered a couple of my questions on his radio show. he explained why her techniques are wrong, and why everything from the biggest loser is all for television. this guy explains everything down to a science, something jillian doesnt do a lot on her show. on the show they arent teaching you proper methods of weight loss. not to mention jillian throws up every time she sees a hamburger or nachos, as if she has never ever seen the stuff in her life. there are many people who leave the show gaining back the weight they have lost


im so glad more people are calling jillian out. my biggest problem with jillian is how she is feeding everyone lies about weight loss and its very clear she has her own agenda (look at all the products she has out now). she does a rebuttal on yahoo saying she has X amount of certificates, and "one that doesnt expire" well according to steve, "getting those certificates are really simple" she may inspire people to lose weight, but a trainer she is not.

its been (what it seems like) forever

wow, i haven't written a blog in a long time. twitter is taking over my life i tell you. i remember when i used to write a blog a week, it would've been two months of me not writing, had i not remembered to write today. there was not much to talk about, other than my workout routines, which is going well since i added more cardio into it. i am doing well in school a 3.5 GPA, the only reason its not a 4.0 is because i had some crappy professors who couldn't teach. i mean i pay them to teach me shit not to read off the damn syllabus. the only thing not going well is my job search, yup eight months and still jobless. something deep inside me thinks that the right job hasnt come by yet and i guess its just not in the cards for me this year. i absolutely hate borrowing money from my parents and it just sucks to be in this position. oh how i wish this economy was still in 2006 condition.

anyway im writing cause i actually found something to write about. new albums!!!
linkin park's new album, a thousand suns came out on the 14th, the same day halo reach came out (and yes it is awesome).
a thousand suns is really a work of art, it took me four to five listens of the whole album (from beginning to end, just as mike shinoda suggested) to really appreciate what they have done. it was really amazing to hear, this band has grown so much since hybrid theory (random thought: ten year anniversary of hybrid theory is coming up next month, wonder what they will do) and will continue to do so for many years to come. as for the haters and so called true LP fans: these guys have pushed the envelope since the very beginning of their careers, if you don't realize that then maybe you shouldnt call yourself a true LP fan.

favorite songs? by far, the catalyst, wretches and kings, blackout, and when they come for me.
now some of the songs i could do without, do i wish there were more guitars? yes. more power vocals? yes. more mike rapping? yes. do i wish they did more things like hybrid theory and meteora? somewhat, maybe thats the 14 year old me talking. the 21 year old me likes all of their albums.

after four listens (at least) i give this album 9/10

now on to maroon 5, another favorite band of mine.
i have been waiting on this album, for what seems like forever and when i listened to it; i have to be honest, i was not happy.
i do have to give them credit though on creating a sound that was more funky and gave something that people could dance to unlike songs about jane.
it seems like the first half of the album was great, but the rest was mediocre. i expected much more out of this album, but i was very disappointed. i was really hoping for the SAJ sound to come back, only edgier. there are only so many songs about girls that broke you heart/ slept with that you can write about. the lyrics were very generic, and the title song, hands all over, sounded a lot like pour some sugar on me by def leppard. these guys are really talented and im not going to drop them as one of my favorite bands just like that. i was hoping for some creativity on like they did on wake up call and makes me wonder.
they really set the bar high for themselves when they did SAJ. adam really poured his heart out and if you listen carefully you could hear it breaking, on that album. i heard some of it break on it wont be soon before long, and almost none of it on hands all over.
despite the disappointment, i did have some favorites, hands all over, misery, give me a little more, stutter (which gives a nice doowop feeling), last chance (which is not even on the real album just the deluxe version), and out of goodbyes with lady antebellum.
i will give it a few more listens before i give a proper rating but for now its a 6/10.

so thats my two album reviews. i'll try to keep up and write more reviews and remember you can follow me on twitter, where i basically write my thoughts anyways. until then.....

you act so innocent, all full with good intent.

hello all. been a while since my last post, been trying to think of topics, but ive been a little stressed lately.well for one, my parents are trying to sell the house and are pressuring me to transfer my classes to IL. i dont want to because i KNOW that half of my credits wont get transferred over and i will have to start over, which means more years in college and more money. i really need a break from my family , not a long one, but just a day or two away from all of them. im going over to BFF's noodles, place on sunday so maybe that will be my escape. other than that everything is going well for me, im losing more weight by running, exercising, and eating right. my regular classes wont start till september so i still have time to chill.

*insert anchor voice here* in other news. the catalyst released worldwide on tuesday, and i was very pleased with what i heard. its a crazy mix of electronica and hard rock. its really hard to explain, its something you're gonna have to hear for yourself. i hope to see both maroon 5 and linkin park live, but at this rate i dont think its going to happen. *sniffles*

alright lets get to my topic which is "current reality tv".
i dont mind some reality shows, like the food networks "next food network star" and "the amazing race". but shows like "the jersey shore" and "ochocinco: the ultimate catch" really makes me lose faith in this country. the fact that "the jersey shore" gets as much attention as it does is truly astounding. whatever happened to plain ol' scripted television? not just having some over paid actors with bad tans and too much hair gel / spray act like a bunch of idiots? is this what television has come to? these morons were in newsweek. NEWSWEEK! you know the magazine that talks about politics and things that ACTUALLY MATTER IN THE WORLD. what the hell did they contribute to the world to deserve a spot on newsweek? its a sad day in the world when people who earn almost a years worth salary PER EPISODE that act and speak nothing more than a four year old going to preschool rings in the NYSE bell in front of all stock brokers who spent years in college working their asses off getting an education. you know whats even sadder? they are laughing their way to the bank! you know maybe i should forget about getting a degree and act like a dumbass for the cameras, and make 3x as much as my cousin is making at his cubical job.
who can you blame for what passes as television? MTV, who really should change their name to RTV since 99.9% of their programming is reality. and none of those shows are even that good. all im saying is if you name your channel music television, well there damn well better be music on it and not some twenty somethings (or so we're told) fighting and pulling their poofy hair. *end rant*

thats why i like fuse. at least they show music videos.
bye

catalyst misery

i know its been a while since i updated this blog; a part of it is because im busy with school and family another part of it is because i dont have anything interesting to write about that hasnt already been said before. i also post the majority of my thoughts on twitter. i will start writing album reviews again once maroon 5 and linkin park come out with their albums in september. i guess i could review maroon 5's latest single misery.

maroon 5 went to switzerland to record with producer mutt lange for their latest album hands all over.

(i do not like this cover btw)
misery is about a man who broke up with his girlfriend but doesnt want to leave (what a shock), this song has their usual influences, (michael jackson, prince, stevie wonder, ect) but what is missing from this song is an infectious hook that they are known for. the "i am in misery, there aint nobody that can comfort me" hook isnt their best hook, and not infectious right away, but i promise you after a couple of listens it will be.


it also seems that this is more of a live song, as presented on the today show, than a studio song.


if the rest of the album is like this song well i personally would be disappointed.

meanwhile linkin park has been giving puzzles to their fans; the clever mike shinoda gave the puzzles to fans on his blog.
the puzzles read "a thousand suns" which is their album title and "the catalyst", which is to be their lead single. the album due september 10th, is rumored to be more electronic.

cant wait for the catalyst to come out on august 2nd!

been busier than usual.

i havent been writing a lot lately, mainly because of all the things going on around me. my parents moved from their one bedroom apartment to a two bedroom condo. i went to seattle for a family trip, which was fun except for the fact that it rained all the damn time. we went to the rose garden where i took amazing rose photos.







i know it's been a while since i posted pictures of anything, but i just havent been inspired until that trip. my classes at my night class have gotten tougher and i just have been a little down because i have been going into this thing lately where i think im going to die alone. love has not been kind to me in the past, it has bitch slapped in the face and thrown me on to the ground. *sighs* i feel like im 14 again saying all this love crap. sometimes i believe it wont ever happen to me.

well enough of that lets talk about the recent oil spill, to only have two word to say to BP, jack asses. what the hell are they thinking? the spill will magically clean itself up? that obama will step in? which he is in no position to do anything except maybe tell BP to get on it. this is BP's mess and they should clean their crap up. end of story.

my job hunt is still not going well, i got another rejection email about two weeks ago. makes me wanna give up on my job search because most of the places i send my resume to don't even reply back to me. i refuse to go back to my old job, only because i believe it will not take me anywhere. i guess i just have to stick to being a full time student for now.

its also been a year since my mom was diagnosed with pulmonary hypertension. she has almost made a full recovery since then. this disease will stay with her for the rest of her life, which means she will be on medication for the rest of her life. i have learned quite a bit too. sometimes life throws you curve balls and you have to roll with the punches. i also learned that not everyone will stick with you when times do get tough, even the ones who knew you forever. i am also very grateful for all those prayers that went to my mom in that time of need. and i am also thankful to anyone who told me that my mom would be fine and lifted my spirits when they were the lowest it has ever been. no one knew how much i have cried every night when she was in the hospital and no one knew how much i wanted to be there in the hospital with her through those rough nights.

although her medication makes her have crazy mood swings, when she is happy, it makes me happy too.

i'll be writing more soon. thats it for now.

the patriot act: how far is going to far?

the job hunt isnt going as well as i originally thought it would. i send my resumes out, most of the time with no response. i send out follow ups with no response. i only got one interview in the last month. and they didnt want me because i wasnt the right person for the job. the girl in my group for my night class says that i should enjoy the freedom i have now because having a full time job sucks. i guess would be true if i were looking for a full time job.

im finally starting to see the benefits of working out regularly. not only am i losing fat, i have more energy and strength than ever before. i just feel more fit and it feels really good.

this new law that passed in arizona has me all riled up. it basically states the the police have a right to stop you if they think your an illegal. i dont like illegals as much as the next person, but this is going too far. i realize that we need to keep illegals in check, but not stop anybody that looks like them! thats racial profiling! my cousin and my brother have been racially profiled in airports. my brother who is a goddamn US citizen has been racially profiled. all because of the patriot act; a red herring to basically take our rights away. people have shed blood for those rights and freedom and now we say its alright to take away those rights because of suspected illegals? are you f-ing kidding me??? this is the most ridiculous thing i have ever heard.

for those who are saying "whats the big deal?" i'll tell you what the big deal is. this is looking more and more to be the first of many new immigration laws across the country. and yes this may not directly affect you, but it will in part will make it harder to than it already is to go to and from other countries. it will also make it more difficult for those who want to legally settle here.

spring is here

so spring is finally here and im running harder than i have before. im going farther on the treadmill and on the track and finally seeing some muscle tone on my body. it looks like all the workouts are starting to pay off.

i didnt get the job at 3DL design, which is disappointing. it looked like a pretty demanding position, so im also kinda glad i didnt get it. im really tired of doing nothing except working out on the days i dont go to class. i really need a job but no one is hiring. its really frustrating.

my night classes are going fine, im in a bigger cohort this time around so its different. however im really glad im with people that are really serious about getting their education. the one thing i hated at parkside was the fact no one was that serious about anything, students went through the motions and didnt really give a damn. but here they actually do give a damn and they challenge me a whole lot too. even with a full time job and a family, they manage to find the time and make getting an education a priority, which is something that should be applauded.


anyways the reason im writing is because I have somethings i want to let you, this is a poem/journal:

I may seem close guarded or isolated; thats just how I am.
It's not that I don't want to talk to you. It's just I don't know what to say.
I'm an introvert, I like to keep to myself, but that doesn't mean that I don't want to talk
Understand that there are things I don't feel comfortable talking about.
Boys don't like talking to me because I'm a tomboy. I guess I intimidate them or something.
People think I'm safe. So what if I am? Well I'm sorry if I don't spend my weekends partying it up and snorting coke or smoking weed and drinking. I'm not the girl who goes up to random people and just talk.
I have been raised on the morals of that hard work leads to great things. If that was true than Goldman Sachs would've been in jail a long time ago.
Boys let me ask you a question: Does it bother you if a girl wears jeans, tshirt, a hoodie with her hair in a pony tail and wearing no makeup and her sneakers till they are torn to shreds?
I only one three pairs of shoes, my tennis shoes or sneakers, my high heels, and my boots with a one inch flat heel. guess which one i wear all the time.
It hurts when people say stuff about me that's not true. I put a guard on, but I do have feelings. I'm a very sensitive person underneath it all.
With all that's happened last year I finally know who my real friends are.
Thanks for those who stuck with me and gave me support when I needed it.
I refuse to conform to ideals that Indian women are "supposed" to do. I refuse to do anything that would make women look like the slaves of society.
I don't like being lied to or I don't like anyone talking about me behind my back.
I really don't like it when people are ignorant and disrespectful of a person's race ethnicity or sexuality.
I really really don't like it when people are ignorant to other people's ideas without giving it proper thought.
I'm writing this cause sometimes I feel ignored and when people don't call or write back to me it makes me think I was being used the entire time, for what I have no idea.


so that's it. i have more to write on that later.

it's been awhile

well it's been a long time since i posted, but there is a lot to talk about. first off, i got an interview with a company called 3DL Design. it's a sales associate position job. i really hope i get it. second, watching the food network on a daily basis has started to pay off. it has made me a better cook. i watch it at least three hours a day learning foods, tips and techniques. my favorite shows are everyday italian with giada de lautertiis, cooking for real, tyler's ultimate, boy meets grill, throwdown with bobby flay, and barefoot contessa. i don't really like a lot of paula deen's recipes only because they are too unhealthy. im pretty sure this is what i needed, because if i had to see another train wreck reality trash show on vh1 mtv or e! again, i was going to scream. at least you can learn something off of the reality shows the food network offers.
the third (but certainly not the least) thing i wanted to talk about is my cousin's wedding. yes he got married. he got married on march 10th in bangalore, india. me and the rest of the family were all there. (yes, i went to india in the middle of the school year). getting the visas were a pain, my bro and i had to go to the indian embassy to get them because the place we went to considered holi a holiday. after we got our visas, we had to do some packing. that took awhile because my mom takes forever to pack. she also needed to approved for the trip because of her condition. my cousin had to get all of his documents together for him to travel out the country. he was also planning to take the girl back with him after they got married (that was a pain too). when we got there on (march 3 or 4th?) we were very jet lagged but we had to meet the girl that day. so i had to change and put make up on. we had to squeeze five of us in to a three person car. and go to the other side of town. i was super tired, but didnt show it. there wasnt any time to rest (or breathe for that matter) within the next few days. we had to get clothes, shoes, the works for the wedding. all of it within a week and half. i still cant believe we pulled it off. we had rituals before the wedding we had to do. it was only a couple hours for two days, but with meeting the family and friends it felt like forever. the girl hema, (pronounced like hay-ma) was awesome and fun. she's quiet, but im sure it's because she's away from her family right now. im so happy that my cousin finally got married. everyone said that i should get married in india. im like hell no. i could never go through the same thing that hema went through. india is not my place anyway, i wasnt born there, i didnt grow up there. i grew up in the US, so i get married there.
it's been almost two weeks since i came back and im still trying to get over the jet lag.

btw i lost weight when i was there. yeah, you'd think with the amount of sweets they gave us, i would gain five pounds. when i starting working out again when i came back, my cardio took a major hit. there is so much pollution over there that it took a week to get it all out. the pollution gets worse everytime i go there.
i'll post pictures up eventually.
till then...

my thoughts on american idol

i havent posted in awhile because i didnt have a good enough topic to talk about. so while i was in the shower i was thinking why did adam lambert lose to kris allen on american idol? then that got me thinking about how american idol was similar to a corporate business. then that got me thinking about how i should write a blog about it.

i am not avid idol watcher. if i do watch idol its probably because im in between two other shows that are worth watching on commercial breaks. the scary thing about idol is that a person like me who never watches the show could still know what is going on. the first season of american idol, was my favorite one (even though i really didnt watch it) because of kelly clarkson. by the end of the season everyone knew who she was. today,because of the internet and social networking everyone knows the first and maybe last names of the top ten. i knew who adam lambert was because of adrianne curry's blog. she never watched american idol before this guy, so i knew he must be worth checking out. i admit it i saw some of his idol performances on youtube thought he was really talented and should win. the night before the idol results finale, im not kidding you my facebook and twitter blew up with status updates saying "vote for adam lambert!!!!!!!" a lot of people wanted him to win. and maybe a selected few wanted kris to win. the moment after it was announced that kris won, you could feel the disappointment through my computer.

i knew exactly what happened. something thats been happening since at least season two. i am suggesting what you are probably thinking. ladies and gentlemen that are avid idol watchers, american idol is.......wait for it........RIGGED!!!!! *GASP* "really?" "no way!" yes it is rigged. adam lambert and clay aiken's loss have proven it is rigged. how is it rigged you ask? let me explain

lets think of american idol as a corporate business. the executive producer, simon cowell, is the CEO. now simon must choose very carefully who does he want to represent the american idol brand. a lot of people apply for the job but only few will make it by house vote. lets talk about the house vote, which represents the american vote, now since simon is CEO he can control who the house votes, he can belittle a applicant, while his other three directors (judges) have their opinion. the other producers, that are behind the scenes give a limited choice of topics (songs) to talk about. if they win over house vote anyways, they can always "direct the calls another way". like they did with the big at&t scandal back in'04.

now lets talk about how they chose winners. well lets look at season one winner kelly clarkson, now since she managed to have a fruitful career, which i think she owes it to idol producers, lets look at how she was chosen a winner. kelly had the usual "small town girl" background. she had girl next door looks and a beautiful voice....she was in other words completely marketable. what about justin guarini? other having a nice voice and hair, he didnt have a lot going on. so the clear winner was kelly. now lets fast forward to the most recent winner, kris allen. boyish, or as adrianne curry put it "disney good looks" incredible voice, able to sing in front of audiences of all ages. very marketable. lets look at adam lambert. very controversial, great voice, edgy and original, but also has a slew of fans of all ages. so why did kris win? i hate to pull the gay card out, but i honestly think that was it. CEO simon, doesnt want middle america to see a eyeliner wearing american idol. but what i dont get is if the company is about making money (which it is) then why not choose a winner they will profit the most off of? adam lambert is currently getting more radio plays and downloads than kris allen.

very strange from a business standpoint. so to all of you idol watchers that are voting consistently, just know that there is a good percentage that your house vote will not count.

ahh holidays

so its been awhile since my last blog....thats mostly because of the holidays. i am hoping things go a lot better this year than last year. first and foremost i need to get a job that will help my degree. my night class has started back up again, i have been taking non western religions to fill a gap. i will be going back into my regular cohort soon and i will probably go into the bachelor's program.

i was just thinking a lot about my past lately and thinking "god how different would i have been had i not done that?" i have more so been thinking about my high school years and my depression. i cant believe i have overcome all that. there were times when i just wanted to die, there were times when i just thought if i died right now no one would care. even during the first year of college, how overwhelmed i was.

i think things can only go up from here. i have gone through so much in the past year and i just want everything to go right...if possible.

i wanna talk about some movies that i absolutely loved in 2009....a late list i know.

1. The Hangover.......i absolutely love this movie, yes it is a little crude in some places, but awesome
2. Avatar........WOW amazing visuals....must see in theaters in 3D
3. Paranormal Activity......some people who saw this on DVD says its not scary at all. that is because they didnt turn the lights down and turn the volume all the way up. or they didnt see it in theaters. incredibly scary....couldnt sleep for days.

on my next blog i'll put up a top ten musicians of the decade

a letter to the president

Dear President Obama,

I would like to start by saying what a wonderful job you're doing despite all the hardships you are facing. You do not deserve all the stuff you are getting right now since most of it was brought by your predecessor. Don't get too excited, I didn't vote for you because I thought you were inexperienced. I still think you are inexperienced, but you are handling it quite well.

The reason I am writing is because I have an issue to address which is the public education system in this country. I understand you have already raised this issue back in may where you talked about how the system could be improved. With all due respect Mr. President, this is where I have to disagree with you. The system doesn't need money, it needs a new curriculum. I have been a student for most of my life it seems, so, I know what its like to be in a school with no doors and no cafeteria. I also know what its like to have teachers less than qualified "teach" just for a paycheck. However, I have also been to India where the students there go to schools that don't have enough desks or chairs for a class of 50 that only supplies for 30. They still, however, are taught at a higher level than the students in the US by teachers there also wouldn't be qualified US standards.

I think you know all the studies done on the US students vs all the other students in the world, so I won't tell you about them. I will tell you that the core of the problem is not money, it's the attitude. We need to change the current curriculum to make students more focused on their studies rather than sports or entertainment. We need to reward them for hard work and only pass students with a minimum of a B average than a C. We are only limiting students of their greatness if we keep rewarding mediocrity.

How many more dropouts do we have to face before we become the worst educated country? How much more money do we have to spend on re educating workers that do not know basic reading and writing?

We can change this Mr. President, we can change how education works in our country we can change the future, which is our children, because I do not want my kids going through the same education system that I went through.

Thank you for your time.

Sincerely,
Supriya A Prasad

i gotta feeling that im about to sneeze again....about to sneeze again

thats right i got a cold again. i also had to give a speech today while handling my cold. (i did very well thank you very much). i havent taken my vitamins, and the temperature changed from 50 to 30 overnight. anyways ive started up my night classes again the class is about non western religions. everyone seems nice, but seriously the last hour of the class last week was not needed, i was very irritated.

i still cant believe its december. seems like the year just flew by for me, this year has been an emotional rollercoaster filled with mostly downs rather than ups. hopefully next year will be different.

i was recently in a one sided debate with a friend about president obama, she said he hasnt really done anything since he's been in office. which i agree on. but she also said that he hasnt kept any of his campaign promises, im like "what politican does?" she also said that government run healthcare will not work because in canada it takes months to get an mri. well see my blog i did on sicko for that side. my point here is that obama is a man with little experience and he will do well if he listens to those more experienced. this begs the question: is he listening?

i am really tired of the constant attacks on tiger woods. so what if he cheated? is it any of my business if he cheats? how is that affecting me? why should he give a statement, is it any of my concern if he does? i saw a guy on the today show saying that "he should've given a statement within 24 hours, regardless of who is advising him." and to justify that he said "this guy has won multiple championships, he's in the media all the time we have a right to know" um no you f-ing dont! the guy has a right to privacy. he wasnt endangering anybody but himself (physically) and his wife (emotionally) and whoever his mistress is. athletes are athletes, they play, they win and conquer. they dont whore themselves out to the media. hey news outlets here's some advice if the man wants to be left alone...LEAVE HIM ALONE. he's not freaking speidi for godsakes.

i have a love hate relationships with the entertainment media. mostly with TMZ, some of the stuff they put on tv is freaking hilarious but most of it is sad. and with E!, im really sick of the stupid twilight coverage. so freaking what????!!!! i read what's its really about over here.....funny as hell but surprisingly true...it was honestly worse than what i thought it was. that is one f-ked up series. and i read a couple of vampire books too.....WAY better than twilight is. robert pattinson is freaking hot though...trust me i really wanted to HATE the guy...he had so many things going against him (well just one) he's british. i saw him on the today show and couldnt help but say "i guess he's not so bad after all" i still hate twilight though.


im pretty sure my bro and my cousin are going to make a list of all the hot women he wants to be with now....and i dont care :)

thats it for now.

i havent written in awhile

there is so much going on in my life right now that i feel like im going to explode at times. i wont reveal too much but some of it has to do with my family but most of it has to do with me. i fear a lot. i fear i will die alone, i fear that i will never reach my career goals, i fear that i will be stuck at home for the rest of my life. my parents dont really understand what i go through, what i deal with everyday nor do they make an effort to. i think that was what sent me over the edge. i constantly feel under appreciated for everything i do for them and i feel like i have to force a thank you out of them every time. but in the end all i really needed was just a couple of days to myself which i did and i feel a lot better.

moving on.....im just relieved that new moon is nearing its release date so i wont have to see all of those ads for it on tv or the cast coming on my shows i watch and promoting it like their life depends on it. and im very tired of hearing the stupid rob and kristin rumors. its very clear from the body language i saw on the today show, (hey i was bored and i didnt feel like changing the channel) that they were in fact hiding that they are dating. my bro even noticed the little freudian slips kristin gave on the today show. i just wish those two would just say yes we are dating and move on so they dont take up anymore of my show's time. i never even read the books or seen the movie and i know what the hell is going on which is even sadder.

i have also recently have seen that chick carrie prejean on cnn, promoting her book and how she's a victim and crap. it wasnt even her stand on gay marriage that got me mad (frankly, i thought it was she was entitled to her opinion, if she were to say that to me i wouldve told her "to rewrite the constitution so you cant vote ,go to war, not marry) i lost all respect for that chick when she played the victim card when this supposed "christian" has a sex tape. unbelievable. she justifies her claims by putting blame on the liberals whenever they attack conservatives. again unbelievable. you know you cant take this chick seriously especially when she calls sarah palin her hero. and that wasnt even the hilarious part, it was the fact that she calls herself accomplished that was so funny. im sorry but what did she accomplish exactly other than being hated by most of nation?

thats it for now...i'll write more soon

new show review

the following is another review, if you don't want to read it then leave now or bite me.

there isn't a lot of new shows out there (or any good ones to say the least), but there was one that surprised me. it's the new show on usa called white collar. its about neal caffery, a con man, escapes from prison with just three months left on his three year sentence using the fraud like techniques showed in movies like "catch me if you can" and "ocean's eleven". he stops at an empty apartment with an empty wine bottle where the cops and peter burke, the man who's been trailing him for years, catch him. back in prison, neal ends up making a deal with peter, he could help catch other thieves just like him, if he gets released under peter's watch.

as the pilot develops you discover that peter is married to a wife who keeps him grounded, and neal is just a hopeless romantic. you end up rooting for both of them by the end of the episode.


i honestly wasn't expecting to love it, but i did. this is the first time in a very long time im excited for friday to come so i can see another episode.

i guess it's time for a movie review

its that time of year again, all the scary movies coming out right before halloween (or the movie Saw, that comes out every halloween). i saw a movie that made me lose sleep two nights in a row, paranormal activity. The movie takes place in san diego, california where a young couple easily in their twenties, recently started noticing strange things happening in their home. to be sure that it was paranormal they rented a camera to catch these strange things. what they found was something beyond freaky.

paranormal activity is not your everyday scary story. it's taken from the angle of the rented camera, so it looks like a "mockumentary" ala blair witch project. the story starts off slow only to build up to an amazing scary ending. there are not a lot of characters that have a lot of lines but the couple they show us and the visual effects (if used at all) were not obvious. to be honest, the raw and realness of the video made me think this was actual footage of someone's house.

because of the direction, storyline, acting, the the incredible amount of fear i got from it, i give this movie an A.


my advice for those who want to see it:
1. please go into the movie with ZERO expectations, if you listened to the hype just wait for the DVD.
2. i strongly advise not to see this movie alone, this is actually a very good date movie, i saw a lot of girls holding on to their significant others throughout the movie.
3. whatever you do NOT see this movie at night, i know a lot of people who did this and they stayed awake the entire night.
4. the movie is rated R for a reason, it is SCARY, so please use your common sense and don't bring children under 17 to it.

well thats it.

i'll probably write my review for law abiding citizen later

writing with a killer headache

so my mom came from chicago and is staying at the house for a couple weeks. last year, my mom was used to seeing my bro and i every day, this year is different especially since june. having her here is nice, but at the same time it's a little drag because my bro and i have to take care of her. it's not that she's immobile or anything, she just needs more attention. sometimes its too much for me. i was thinking about getting a job, but now it seems like madness. with the stress level already high for me right now, i dont know if i could take a job plus the recession took a big toll on where i live. sometimes i feel just as stressed as the people in my night class, and they have full time jobs, have kids and are married (well most of them are). i am 20 years old and i should be living it up instead im stuck at home most of the time. i chose career instead of partying it up in college. i chose to go home after work instead of spending the whole night riding rides or searching for flags. i chose not to go after the one i like instead of having a boyfriend. those were my decisions and which lead me to where? having no fun whatsoever. things always held me back, my parents for one, and fear for two. i bet you anything next year im going to be celebrating my 21st birthday with my family instead of my friends. i could put the blame on my parents for me not having any fun during my teens, but i wont. because i could've easily told them i was going to my best friend's house when i would really go to a party that was loaded with alcohol and who knows what else. i was invited to those back in high school, not directly, but i knew if i asked they wouldve said yes. a lot of shit happened to me in high school. my heart got broken (hey whose didn't?), i was pretty much an outcast mostly because i was friends with a girl who basically whored herself to every guy she saw. i wanted to help her but she talked some crap behind my best friend's back (she was friends with her too) and lets just say i lost touch with her. besides my best friend, i had no one. i mean i was cool with some people but i never hung out with them outside of school. i just felt so withdrawn during that time, i felt so out of place with everyone. the only time i didn't was when i was in drama club. there i felt like the girls who didn't talk to me did when i did my first play. my second play, no one did. i remember one time senior year, there was a girl who moved from texas, she was a beautiful blonde girl, i offered to show her around because i've been in her position before. she kinda snubbed me and said "well i know where everything is" it wasnt long before she found her new friends which was the popular crowd who showed her around. i looked at her facebook and found that she was popular at her old school too. i believe its the theory of natural stability, or something like that when a teenager is a certain way at one school he or she will most likely be the same way when they move. its 75% with popular kids i believe, i learned that in my developmental psych class last semester. i have also taken enough psych classes to know that i was depressed most of my times in high school more so the end of sophomore year till senior year. i knew i was depressed, but i didn't think anything of it. i didn't know how bad it was until the beginning of my sophomore year in college, when i was learning about depression and more so this year. i also gained a lot of weight during high school and i didn't do much about it. you see, people who have known me forever would know that i used to be a tiny girl, i used to be around 5'3-5'4 till i sprouted up to 5'9. i also used to be bone skinny, my bro was like this too. people thought that my parents never fed us. we had such insanely high metabolisms. but i gained weight when i was 14 (my mom couldnt be happier), and kept gaining till i was 15 because i never got used to my new metabolism. i started working out, and i got into shape last year. i wish i feel the same way about my mental health as i do with my physical health though.

its hard to love yourself when you find so many faults, you know? i look in the mirror and i see so many things wrong with my face. sometimes i have my fat days too. you know when one day you realize you look overweight, but when you work out you feel better. there are days where i feel like i will die alone because i dont go out with anyone. there are days where i feel like i will being living at home until i die. i have my days where i say this isn't going to happen, where i make positive goals for myself so i don't think like that. i do have my days where i just write poems. because poems are my drugs. then there are days where i feel like a free bird, i dance around and be a happy child of god.

i just hope there are more days like that for me.

im sick with nothing else to do

dont you love catching a cold?...it only happens to me once a year so i guess today had to be it. lets see topics...topics....what to talk about.
i guess i could talk about my weird dream last night. i dreamt i was in this theater and linkin park (it couldve been dead by sunrise but im not sure) was playing inside. i somehow got front row seats and my bro was in the back (dont ask me why) anyways chester bennington comes down from the stage and into our area and i started going nuts. when the song ended he was going back up to the stage and i said something along the lines of "your awesome! thanks for all the music you brought into my life and i love you!!" and he touched his sweaty hand with mine and said "no thank YOU" and he left. he was shirtless like he always was when it;s the middle of a set. and i remember saying to myself "did i just scream like a little fangirl when he touched my hand?"

i got up a thousand times last night because of my cold and i had three dreams but this is the one i remembered the most. my first one was playing halo 3. which made sense cause i was playing halo 3 before i went to sleep.

you know sitting here talking about my dream and looking out the window which is filled with gray clouds doesn't make me feel any better about my cold...im slightly better now that i took a hot shower and drank some warm water.

oh! i know who to talk about now!

listen to this









Amazing right????

his name is Nick Pitera, he's a college graduate and is working for Pixar. it looks like he wasnt pursuing singing full time before but i bet he is now.

that's it for now

ahhhh review!

someone said im copying my brother in post topics for those of you who don't know already my brother has a blog of his own which you can view here . this isn't true. not only was my last post a quick review of sicko. i also had an example and an opinion, which yes, is quite similar to my brother's but is different.

anyways im not writing to refute that comment, but im writing because i recently heard the new dead by sunrise album, out of ashes. its soo good. for those of you into that whole head banging rock my suffering, fire, and crawl back in is good. and for those of you into that sensitive rock, "into you", "give me your name" (i want that song to be my first dance at my wedding), "let down", and "too late" are awesome songs. and "walking in circles, "morning after"(although, i love the underworld soundtrack version) "in the darkness" ,"condemned" and "inside of me" are good fillers...i wouldnt say these are bad...but they are either overproduced, trying too hard, etc. "end of the world" is the chester version of "hands held high" on LP's Minutes to Midnight.

its quite obvious for anyone who is an LP fan and who has read interview with chester in it from the past couple years (it would also help to read any interview about out of ashes) which he said it's about his divorce, getting remarried, and sobriety. he also said that "give me your name" was originally recorded as the first dance song at his wedding.

don't you love seeing one of your favorite rock stars grow in front of your eyes? one moment he's yelling "im about to break!" at you all angry, looking like a devil worshiper, the next he singing about how you remind him of the ocean.

funny how times have changed.

i saw a little movie called sicko

it's a movie everyone should see if you want to understand the healthcare debate more. its a documentary by the producer and director of fahrenheit 9/11 micheal moore. i got very furious when i learned how health care was really run in this country. people are turned down left and right for reasons so ridiculous that it even makes our former president look smart. no one deserves the type of treatment by our insurance companies, who turns down claims for coverage as life threatening as a brain tumor and as stupid as a yeast infection. universal healthcare seems to be the way to go. our government makes universal healthcare out to be this fearful socialist thing. like "omg it's socialist. socialism leads to facism and facism leads to communism. we aint no commie country!" BS. our whole country is runned by socialism. we pay for our post office, library, firefighters, police all with what? our TAXES. why not health care? i'll tell you one thing: i'd rather have taxes raised for universal healthcare then for going to war (a war which shouldn't have happened in the first place). our government is soo good at scaring the citizens into thinking things that are not true.
exhibit a: the H1N1 virus aka the pandemic that'll end the human race.
i have taken enough psychology classes to know that if someone of authority (the government) says the H1N1 virus is deadly enough times then one will believe it since no one is active enough to look at the facts, which is it's a strain of flu that no one has seen before. get it? a STRAIN OF THE FLU. so while everyone is washing their hands like an OCD maniac, im sitting here wondering, when this gets off the news will anyone still wash their hands?

the same is said for universal healthcare...."omg if you have universal healthcare you'll have to wait months to get a checkup/surgery/whatever" well according to sicko, that is pure fiction. you will have to wait just minutes to get a check up with no fee whatsoever. and in london, they even pay YOU for the transportation fees to get to the hospital.

we don't have to let families drown in medical debt, we can have universal healthcare. it's not that hard we just have to do it. and make those republicans admit their mistake.


thats it for now...if you have an opinion about healthcare leave a comment

a girl i used to know moved

yup she moved back to her country and she wrote this huge spiel on her facebook explaining why. she basically said in her "omg look how good i write" note that she's going back because americans are so materialistic. she didn't say that but thats how she came across. she's such a spiritualist you see, she reached a point in her life where nothing matters but her "humanitarian work". um right, it was humanitarian of you to not return my messages after you contacted me after that fake apology that your mother probably made you do?

im so sick of girls like her who make themselves out to be this good person when they are not. this "look at me i go to sunday school, i helped build a shelter, ect" attitude is so disgusting to me. especially when they dont know what it means to be spiritual. spirituality is not about how much humanitarian work you do. its how many people you can reach.

enough ranting, im excited all my shows are coming back this week. finally i wont have to rely on friends reruns to keep me entertained.

i think i may be slipping a little on my diet and exercise, i have been working out but not as much as i would like to. i am losing weight but not the right way. im stressed out and im not eating right because of that, im stressed about my mom, money, not so much school, but how am i going to move?

im getting inspired a lot more and i have been writing more poetry.

A Worker Who Works Is Never A Sin

a hole to dig my shallow grave
a cold wind for this hollow cave
my heart beats in lonely beats
as girls whisper with their rushing feet
a cry alone wonders if i should die
who will remember i?
alone am i within
a worker who works is never a sin.