jillian michaels: she's a fraud alright

dont get me wrong, i used to love this chick, along with the rest of america. but there is this guy, who is a highly qualified and certified trainer, named steve turano who completely shut this chick down. i respect this guy cause he makes a whole lot more sense than jillian ever did. he actually answered a couple of my questions on his radio show. he explained why her techniques are wrong, and why everything from the biggest loser is all for television. this guy explains everything down to a science, something jillian doesnt do a lot on her show. on the show they arent teaching you proper methods of weight loss. not to mention jillian throws up every time she sees a hamburger or nachos, as if she has never ever seen the stuff in her life. there are many people who leave the show gaining back the weight they have lost


im so glad more people are calling jillian out. my biggest problem with jillian is how she is feeding everyone lies about weight loss and its very clear she has her own agenda (look at all the products she has out now). she does a rebuttal on yahoo saying she has X amount of certificates, and "one that doesnt expire" well according to steve, "getting those certificates are really simple" she may inspire people to lose weight, but a trainer she is not.

its been (what it seems like) forever

wow, i haven't written a blog in a long time. twitter is taking over my life i tell you. i remember when i used to write a blog a week, it would've been two months of me not writing, had i not remembered to write today. there was not much to talk about, other than my workout routines, which is going well since i added more cardio into it. i am doing well in school a 3.5 GPA, the only reason its not a 4.0 is because i had some crappy professors who couldn't teach. i mean i pay them to teach me shit not to read off the damn syllabus. the only thing not going well is my job search, yup eight months and still jobless. something deep inside me thinks that the right job hasnt come by yet and i guess its just not in the cards for me this year. i absolutely hate borrowing money from my parents and it just sucks to be in this position. oh how i wish this economy was still in 2006 condition.

anyway im writing cause i actually found something to write about. new albums!!!
linkin park's new album, a thousand suns came out on the 14th, the same day halo reach came out (and yes it is awesome).
a thousand suns is really a work of art, it took me four to five listens of the whole album (from beginning to end, just as mike shinoda suggested) to really appreciate what they have done. it was really amazing to hear, this band has grown so much since hybrid theory (random thought: ten year anniversary of hybrid theory is coming up next month, wonder what they will do) and will continue to do so for many years to come. as for the haters and so called true LP fans: these guys have pushed the envelope since the very beginning of their careers, if you don't realize that then maybe you shouldnt call yourself a true LP fan.

favorite songs? by far, the catalyst, wretches and kings, blackout, and when they come for me.
now some of the songs i could do without, do i wish there were more guitars? yes. more power vocals? yes. more mike rapping? yes. do i wish they did more things like hybrid theory and meteora? somewhat, maybe thats the 14 year old me talking. the 21 year old me likes all of their albums.

after four listens (at least) i give this album 9/10

now on to maroon 5, another favorite band of mine.
i have been waiting on this album, for what seems like forever and when i listened to it; i have to be honest, i was not happy.
i do have to give them credit though on creating a sound that was more funky and gave something that people could dance to unlike songs about jane.
it seems like the first half of the album was great, but the rest was mediocre. i expected much more out of this album, but i was very disappointed. i was really hoping for the SAJ sound to come back, only edgier. there are only so many songs about girls that broke you heart/ slept with that you can write about. the lyrics were very generic, and the title song, hands all over, sounded a lot like pour some sugar on me by def leppard. these guys are really talented and im not going to drop them as one of my favorite bands just like that. i was hoping for some creativity on like they did on wake up call and makes me wonder.
they really set the bar high for themselves when they did SAJ. adam really poured his heart out and if you listen carefully you could hear it breaking, on that album. i heard some of it break on it wont be soon before long, and almost none of it on hands all over.
despite the disappointment, i did have some favorites, hands all over, misery, give me a little more, stutter (which gives a nice doowop feeling), last chance (which is not even on the real album just the deluxe version), and out of goodbyes with lady antebellum.
i will give it a few more listens before i give a proper rating but for now its a 6/10.

so thats my two album reviews. i'll try to keep up and write more reviews and remember you can follow me on twitter, where i basically write my thoughts anyways. until then.....

you act so innocent, all full with good intent.

hello all. been a while since my last post, been trying to think of topics, but ive been a little stressed lately.well for one, my parents are trying to sell the house and are pressuring me to transfer my classes to IL. i dont want to because i KNOW that half of my credits wont get transferred over and i will have to start over, which means more years in college and more money. i really need a break from my family , not a long one, but just a day or two away from all of them. im going over to BFF's noodles, place on sunday so maybe that will be my escape. other than that everything is going well for me, im losing more weight by running, exercising, and eating right. my regular classes wont start till september so i still have time to chill.

*insert anchor voice here* in other news. the catalyst released worldwide on tuesday, and i was very pleased with what i heard. its a crazy mix of electronica and hard rock. its really hard to explain, its something you're gonna have to hear for yourself. i hope to see both maroon 5 and linkin park live, but at this rate i dont think its going to happen. *sniffles*

alright lets get to my topic which is "current reality tv".
i dont mind some reality shows, like the food networks "next food network star" and "the amazing race". but shows like "the jersey shore" and "ochocinco: the ultimate catch" really makes me lose faith in this country. the fact that "the jersey shore" gets as much attention as it does is truly astounding. whatever happened to plain ol' scripted television? not just having some over paid actors with bad tans and too much hair gel / spray act like a bunch of idiots? is this what television has come to? these morons were in newsweek. NEWSWEEK! you know the magazine that talks about politics and things that ACTUALLY MATTER IN THE WORLD. what the hell did they contribute to the world to deserve a spot on newsweek? its a sad day in the world when people who earn almost a years worth salary PER EPISODE that act and speak nothing more than a four year old going to preschool rings in the NYSE bell in front of all stock brokers who spent years in college working their asses off getting an education. you know whats even sadder? they are laughing their way to the bank! you know maybe i should forget about getting a degree and act like a dumbass for the cameras, and make 3x as much as my cousin is making at his cubical job.
who can you blame for what passes as television? MTV, who really should change their name to RTV since 99.9% of their programming is reality. and none of those shows are even that good. all im saying is if you name your channel music television, well there damn well better be music on it and not some twenty somethings (or so we're told) fighting and pulling their poofy hair. *end rant*

thats why i like fuse. at least they show music videos.
bye

catalyst misery

i know its been a while since i updated this blog; a part of it is because im busy with school and family another part of it is because i dont have anything interesting to write about that hasnt already been said before. i also post the majority of my thoughts on twitter. i will start writing album reviews again once maroon 5 and linkin park come out with their albums in september. i guess i could review maroon 5's latest single misery.

maroon 5 went to switzerland to record with producer mutt lange for their latest album hands all over.

(i do not like this cover btw)
misery is about a man who broke up with his girlfriend but doesnt want to leave (what a shock), this song has their usual influences, (michael jackson, prince, stevie wonder, ect) but what is missing from this song is an infectious hook that they are known for. the "i am in misery, there aint nobody that can comfort me" hook isnt their best hook, and not infectious right away, but i promise you after a couple of listens it will be.


it also seems that this is more of a live song, as presented on the today show, than a studio song.


if the rest of the album is like this song well i personally would be disappointed.

meanwhile linkin park has been giving puzzles to their fans; the clever mike shinoda gave the puzzles to fans on his blog.
the puzzles read "a thousand suns" which is their album title and "the catalyst", which is to be their lead single. the album due september 10th, is rumored to be more electronic.

cant wait for the catalyst to come out on august 2nd!

been busier than usual.

i havent been writing a lot lately, mainly because of all the things going on around me. my parents moved from their one bedroom apartment to a two bedroom condo. i went to seattle for a family trip, which was fun except for the fact that it rained all the damn time. we went to the rose garden where i took amazing rose photos.







i know it's been a while since i posted pictures of anything, but i just havent been inspired until that trip. my classes at my night class have gotten tougher and i just have been a little down because i have been going into this thing lately where i think im going to die alone. love has not been kind to me in the past, it has bitch slapped in the face and thrown me on to the ground. *sighs* i feel like im 14 again saying all this love crap. sometimes i believe it wont ever happen to me.

well enough of that lets talk about the recent oil spill, to only have two word to say to BP, jack asses. what the hell are they thinking? the spill will magically clean itself up? that obama will step in? which he is in no position to do anything except maybe tell BP to get on it. this is BP's mess and they should clean their crap up. end of story.

my job hunt is still not going well, i got another rejection email about two weeks ago. makes me wanna give up on my job search because most of the places i send my resume to don't even reply back to me. i refuse to go back to my old job, only because i believe it will not take me anywhere. i guess i just have to stick to being a full time student for now.

its also been a year since my mom was diagnosed with pulmonary hypertension. she has almost made a full recovery since then. this disease will stay with her for the rest of her life, which means she will be on medication for the rest of her life. i have learned quite a bit too. sometimes life throws you curve balls and you have to roll with the punches. i also learned that not everyone will stick with you when times do get tough, even the ones who knew you forever. i am also very grateful for all those prayers that went to my mom in that time of need. and i am also thankful to anyone who told me that my mom would be fine and lifted my spirits when they were the lowest it has ever been. no one knew how much i have cried every night when she was in the hospital and no one knew how much i wanted to be there in the hospital with her through those rough nights.

although her medication makes her have crazy mood swings, when she is happy, it makes me happy too.

i'll be writing more soon. thats it for now.

the patriot act: how far is going to far?

the job hunt isnt going as well as i originally thought it would. i send my resumes out, most of the time with no response. i send out follow ups with no response. i only got one interview in the last month. and they didnt want me because i wasnt the right person for the job. the girl in my group for my night class says that i should enjoy the freedom i have now because having a full time job sucks. i guess would be true if i were looking for a full time job.

im finally starting to see the benefits of working out regularly. not only am i losing fat, i have more energy and strength than ever before. i just feel more fit and it feels really good.

this new law that passed in arizona has me all riled up. it basically states the the police have a right to stop you if they think your an illegal. i dont like illegals as much as the next person, but this is going too far. i realize that we need to keep illegals in check, but not stop anybody that looks like them! thats racial profiling! my cousin and my brother have been racially profiled in airports. my brother who is a goddamn US citizen has been racially profiled. all because of the patriot act; a red herring to basically take our rights away. people have shed blood for those rights and freedom and now we say its alright to take away those rights because of suspected illegals? are you f-ing kidding me??? this is the most ridiculous thing i have ever heard.

for those who are saying "whats the big deal?" i'll tell you what the big deal is. this is looking more and more to be the first of many new immigration laws across the country. and yes this may not directly affect you, but it will in part will make it harder to than it already is to go to and from other countries. it will also make it more difficult for those who want to legally settle here.

spring is here

so spring is finally here and im running harder than i have before. im going farther on the treadmill and on the track and finally seeing some muscle tone on my body. it looks like all the workouts are starting to pay off.

i didnt get the job at 3DL design, which is disappointing. it looked like a pretty demanding position, so im also kinda glad i didnt get it. im really tired of doing nothing except working out on the days i dont go to class. i really need a job but no one is hiring. its really frustrating.

my night classes are going fine, im in a bigger cohort this time around so its different. however im really glad im with people that are really serious about getting their education. the one thing i hated at parkside was the fact no one was that serious about anything, students went through the motions and didnt really give a damn. but here they actually do give a damn and they challenge me a whole lot too. even with a full time job and a family, they manage to find the time and make getting an education a priority, which is something that should be applauded.


anyways the reason im writing is because I have somethings i want to let you, this is a poem/journal:

I may seem close guarded or isolated; thats just how I am.
It's not that I don't want to talk to you. It's just I don't know what to say.
I'm an introvert, I like to keep to myself, but that doesn't mean that I don't want to talk
Understand that there are things I don't feel comfortable talking about.
Boys don't like talking to me because I'm a tomboy. I guess I intimidate them or something.
People think I'm safe. So what if I am? Well I'm sorry if I don't spend my weekends partying it up and snorting coke or smoking weed and drinking. I'm not the girl who goes up to random people and just talk.
I have been raised on the morals of that hard work leads to great things. If that was true than Goldman Sachs would've been in jail a long time ago.
Boys let me ask you a question: Does it bother you if a girl wears jeans, tshirt, a hoodie with her hair in a pony tail and wearing no makeup and her sneakers till they are torn to shreds?
I only one three pairs of shoes, my tennis shoes or sneakers, my high heels, and my boots with a one inch flat heel. guess which one i wear all the time.
It hurts when people say stuff about me that's not true. I put a guard on, but I do have feelings. I'm a very sensitive person underneath it all.
With all that's happened last year I finally know who my real friends are.
Thanks for those who stuck with me and gave me support when I needed it.
I refuse to conform to ideals that Indian women are "supposed" to do. I refuse to do anything that would make women look like the slaves of society.
I don't like being lied to or I don't like anyone talking about me behind my back.
I really don't like it when people are ignorant and disrespectful of a person's race ethnicity or sexuality.
I really really don't like it when people are ignorant to other people's ideas without giving it proper thought.
I'm writing this cause sometimes I feel ignored and when people don't call or write back to me it makes me think I was being used the entire time, for what I have no idea.


so that's it. i have more to write on that later.

it's been awhile

well it's been a long time since i posted, but there is a lot to talk about. first off, i got an interview with a company called 3DL Design. it's a sales associate position job. i really hope i get it. second, watching the food network on a daily basis has started to pay off. it has made me a better cook. i watch it at least three hours a day learning foods, tips and techniques. my favorite shows are everyday italian with giada de lautertiis, cooking for real, tyler's ultimate, boy meets grill, throwdown with bobby flay, and barefoot contessa. i don't really like a lot of paula deen's recipes only because they are too unhealthy. im pretty sure this is what i needed, because if i had to see another train wreck reality trash show on vh1 mtv or e! again, i was going to scream. at least you can learn something off of the reality shows the food network offers.
the third (but certainly not the least) thing i wanted to talk about is my cousin's wedding. yes he got married. he got married on march 10th in bangalore, india. me and the rest of the family were all there. (yes, i went to india in the middle of the school year). getting the visas were a pain, my bro and i had to go to the indian embassy to get them because the place we went to considered holi a holiday. after we got our visas, we had to do some packing. that took awhile because my mom takes forever to pack. she also needed to approved for the trip because of her condition. my cousin had to get all of his documents together for him to travel out the country. he was also planning to take the girl back with him after they got married (that was a pain too). when we got there on (march 3 or 4th?) we were very jet lagged but we had to meet the girl that day. so i had to change and put make up on. we had to squeeze five of us in to a three person car. and go to the other side of town. i was super tired, but didnt show it. there wasnt any time to rest (or breathe for that matter) within the next few days. we had to get clothes, shoes, the works for the wedding. all of it within a week and half. i still cant believe we pulled it off. we had rituals before the wedding we had to do. it was only a couple hours for two days, but with meeting the family and friends it felt like forever. the girl hema, (pronounced like hay-ma) was awesome and fun. she's quiet, but im sure it's because she's away from her family right now. im so happy that my cousin finally got married. everyone said that i should get married in india. im like hell no. i could never go through the same thing that hema went through. india is not my place anyway, i wasnt born there, i didnt grow up there. i grew up in the US, so i get married there.
it's been almost two weeks since i came back and im still trying to get over the jet lag.

btw i lost weight when i was there. yeah, you'd think with the amount of sweets they gave us, i would gain five pounds. when i starting working out again when i came back, my cardio took a major hit. there is so much pollution over there that it took a week to get it all out. the pollution gets worse everytime i go there.
i'll post pictures up eventually.
till then...

my thoughts on american idol

i havent posted in awhile because i didnt have a good enough topic to talk about. so while i was in the shower i was thinking why did adam lambert lose to kris allen on american idol? then that got me thinking about how american idol was similar to a corporate business. then that got me thinking about how i should write a blog about it.

i am not avid idol watcher. if i do watch idol its probably because im in between two other shows that are worth watching on commercial breaks. the scary thing about idol is that a person like me who never watches the show could still know what is going on. the first season of american idol, was my favorite one (even though i really didnt watch it) because of kelly clarkson. by the end of the season everyone knew who she was. today,because of the internet and social networking everyone knows the first and maybe last names of the top ten. i knew who adam lambert was because of adrianne curry's blog. she never watched american idol before this guy, so i knew he must be worth checking out. i admit it i saw some of his idol performances on youtube thought he was really talented and should win. the night before the idol results finale, im not kidding you my facebook and twitter blew up with status updates saying "vote for adam lambert!!!!!!!" a lot of people wanted him to win. and maybe a selected few wanted kris to win. the moment after it was announced that kris won, you could feel the disappointment through my computer.

i knew exactly what happened. something thats been happening since at least season two. i am suggesting what you are probably thinking. ladies and gentlemen that are avid idol watchers, american idol is.......wait for it........RIGGED!!!!! *GASP* "really?" "no way!" yes it is rigged. adam lambert and clay aiken's loss have proven it is rigged. how is it rigged you ask? let me explain

lets think of american idol as a corporate business. the executive producer, simon cowell, is the CEO. now simon must choose very carefully who does he want to represent the american idol brand. a lot of people apply for the job but only few will make it by house vote. lets talk about the house vote, which represents the american vote, now since simon is CEO he can control who the house votes, he can belittle a applicant, while his other three directors (judges) have their opinion. the other producers, that are behind the scenes give a limited choice of topics (songs) to talk about. if they win over house vote anyways, they can always "direct the calls another way". like they did with the big at&t scandal back in'04.

now lets talk about how they chose winners. well lets look at season one winner kelly clarkson, now since she managed to have a fruitful career, which i think she owes it to idol producers, lets look at how she was chosen a winner. kelly had the usual "small town girl" background. she had girl next door looks and a beautiful voice....she was in other words completely marketable. what about justin guarini? other having a nice voice and hair, he didnt have a lot going on. so the clear winner was kelly. now lets fast forward to the most recent winner, kris allen. boyish, or as adrianne curry put it "disney good looks" incredible voice, able to sing in front of audiences of all ages. very marketable. lets look at adam lambert. very controversial, great voice, edgy and original, but also has a slew of fans of all ages. so why did kris win? i hate to pull the gay card out, but i honestly think that was it. CEO simon, doesnt want middle america to see a eyeliner wearing american idol. but what i dont get is if the company is about making money (which it is) then why not choose a winner they will profit the most off of? adam lambert is currently getting more radio plays and downloads than kris allen.

very strange from a business standpoint. so to all of you idol watchers that are voting consistently, just know that there is a good percentage that your house vote will not count.

ahh holidays

so its been awhile since my last blog....thats mostly because of the holidays. i am hoping things go a lot better this year than last year. first and foremost i need to get a job that will help my degree. my night class has started back up again, i have been taking non western religions to fill a gap. i will be going back into my regular cohort soon and i will probably go into the bachelor's program.

i was just thinking a lot about my past lately and thinking "god how different would i have been had i not done that?" i have more so been thinking about my high school years and my depression. i cant believe i have overcome all that. there were times when i just wanted to die, there were times when i just thought if i died right now no one would care. even during the first year of college, how overwhelmed i was.

i think things can only go up from here. i have gone through so much in the past year and i just want everything to go right...if possible.

i wanna talk about some movies that i absolutely loved in 2009....a late list i know.

1. The Hangover.......i absolutely love this movie, yes it is a little crude in some places, but awesome
2. Avatar........WOW amazing visuals....must see in theaters in 3D
3. Paranormal Activity......some people who saw this on DVD says its not scary at all. that is because they didnt turn the lights down and turn the volume all the way up. or they didnt see it in theaters. incredibly scary....couldnt sleep for days.

on my next blog i'll put up a top ten musicians of the decade