i dont wanna fall back in

im trying so hard not to fall back into a deep depressed state i was in for most of my late teens. it was incredibly hard for me to get out of that mind set and even harder not to go back because of all the craziness that's happening. its also hard to stay positive when u know the reality of the situation. i keep everything inside only to yell at a family member who doesn't deserve it. who can i yell at? i can't yell at amanda at work who accused me of doing nothing while there is stuff to be done. i can't yell at megan, my supervisor who won't give me a day off unless i switch with someone because she "can't have one host working the theater" (i say too damn bad because i did it all the time at picto last year, once with no tech at all for one show) no one wants to hear me bitch and moan. im sick of this. now my mom is back in the ER again because of severe stomach cramps, she's probably gonna have a colonscopy. the stress is insane im expected to do everything and im not able to. i have a number of projects due by the end of the month, my mom is a ticking time bomb, and im going nuts.

i have written a song about a guy i can't have though.
it's called "someone you already knew"
Someone You Already Knew
chorus

do you try to make me feel this way?
do you know what you to do me when you're away?
i feel so helpless cause there's nothing to do
you're in love with someone you already knew

verse 1
She probably knows who you are
front to back
side to side
in and out
but does she really know what you're all about?
I know that you're fun quirky and smart?
but do you really want to be with a real pop tart?
I'm the one you and and boy that's for sure
she's all that you want but I can give more.

chorus
oh its nothing she loves you
oh its nothing, and boy i know its true
you're happy and she does you no harm
you have that wit that soul that charm
oh i know it, you love her its true
oh i know it they all love you too
go ahead make her day
you know her better anyway

chorus
you're in love with someone you already knew
oh you're in love with someone you already knew
in love with someone you already knew.

nice right? im thinking of christina aguilera's "candyman" mixed with maroon 5's "until your over me" for the music. and christina aguilera singing it of course.
well that's it for now